tendered by commendable silence
intended violence of love
i take this heart-glass and smash it
“in case of emergency,” my ass
i’ll ask it
and dependent on the answer
perhaps task it

i
nearly
passed it

if i had not
been looking

you state
that
something about this radiates

i do not believe in fate
but i remember
every
important
date

late in late september
or was it january? wait

how do we count? i mean
what is counting even about?
we tried to reach out,
uncertain if it was allowed

i’m certainly proud;
i’m certainly destined to stand and speak out
but the music is loud
and when i focus
i only see you in the crowd

what should i do now?
all of the neighbors are starting to gather around
i’d rather go down
i’d rather be no one forever than lose what i’ve already found

this is a vow

and fuck anybody who doubts
it is an emergency now
i’m feeling you fervently now
i’m loving you urgently now